RiaDiaries: Dec 18-24

Dec 18 - I spent the majority of my day in a car. I was coming home from Vegas after covering the CBS Sports Classic game. I took some pretty sick shots and UCLA won! Go Bruins. I had the most amazing Tacos from Tacos El Gordo. I ate 5 tacos and was surprised that I was able to still walk afterwards. I was really excited to be home and I just wanted to rest. Eventually once stuck in traffic, I realized I had been in a car for 4 hours straight and began to feel frustrated and annoyed.Thankfully, we arrived in LA and I was able to reward myself with some bread pudding. Yup. Goals.
Dec 19 - I woke up feeling really happy. As I was driving to work with a huge smile on my face. I was thinking of how I wanted to work towards making myself better but this time focusing on my body. I have spent the past year improving my mental health and I have really improved. I have arrived to a point of acceptance and while I'm still a work in progress, my improvements and growth in comparison from last year are big. The negative events in my life from last year propelled me forward and now I'm dedicated to work on my body while still building my mind.
Dec 20 - There was no traffic today in the morning as I headed to work. That might be the most basic LA topic you might ever hear, but it is seriously good news! I spent the majority of my day at work working on preserving books (It's really cool!). I was laughing a lot, and that might be because sometimes you meet people who make you smile and laugh non-stop. It's such a great feeling to be excited to be with someone because you know they will just give you a good time. I'm literary smiling as I write this because the existence of this person makes me happy. Thank you God for that! On another note, today I was also rejected by the LA Times for their summer internship. I was hopeful, but I had a feeling this would happen. Which makes me wonder how sometimes your expectations mismatch your reality, especially when others praise your work. It's a little scary but this is another learning experience. I'm hopeful for the future.
Dec 21 - I drove to work only to realize I did not need to come. I felt a little dumb walking in and realizing this but I must admit that it was pretty funny. Because I had driven all the way to UCLA, I decided to get my nails done since Christmas is just around the corner. I want to have at least one thing in my life together. That might actually be an exaggeration. I have my life together... somewhat. Overall, I didn't do much today. I had an upsetting cloud over me. I'm not quite sure why.
Dec 22 - I went out with my mum and sister after spending the majority of the last three months under a pile of books and things to do. I caught up with them, I laughed, and we bought a few clothes and shared a meal together. I also bought the cutest Christmas mugs with the face or a reindeer, Santa Claus, and a snowman. Not only that, I treated myself to a pillow with the face of a PUG. I. KNOW. Christmas is being good to me.
Dec 23 - It rained almost all day in LA. I love when it gets a little chilly here in the Golden State. Consequently, this type of weather makes me think about my life. It makes me nostalgic. I thought a lot about the things I miss, the people I miss, the things I want and of course the things I have. Today was a rollercoaster. I was happy, but I was also a little sentimental. I also felt a little scared today. Scared because next year will be probably one of the most uncertain years in my life thus far. I don't know if I will finish my studies, I don't know if I will be safe, I don't know if I will be able to find a job after college. I'm trying really hard not to let this get to me, which is why I am putting it out. I'm hopeful and also excited. I'm a seed.
Dec 24 - I was cold and uncomfortable the majority of the day. We drove to Vegas and for the first time we spent it somewhere else besides our home. Yes I did just go to Vegas twice in one week. The rides there were brutal. To be honest, it was nice, but it could have been better. On a lighter note, I loved my presents. I got two pairs of shoes, a Merida doll which I adore, and some clothing pieces.