Hit The Jackpot

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Things have not been the way I expected. At all... by know I imagined myself getting all the things I could possibly do, well... done. But I haven't done most of them. This is but a confession and a pep-talk to myself (but I hope it helps you too).
I confess that I haven't been the best person I can be. Procrastination and I have a love/hate relationship and its draining me. It's an abusive and dangerous relationship between us, and I truly want to end it. Yea our relationship is that deep and serious, I legitimately feel helpless, but one way or another I will try my hardest to do as I should. I should be getting more things done.
I see now that after experiencing drastic conditions in my life it is time I take the wise words of James Baldwin and appreciate all the "disadvantages" I have in my life. As he would have said, I hit the jackpot by being different and challenged. I couldn't possibly ask for a better life; I truly mean that.
Although I am struggling with making my life more productive, I am glad of my awareness to my problem. Like any person with a problem, awareness is the first step to change. I promise (to myself) to change my ways and excel in everything I do.
This life is not about doing mediocre work. This life is about doing spectacular work.
Cheers for being spectacular.
MB