I Keep Looking Back

It's one in the morning and all I think about is how I keep looking back. I think of the What Ifs and think that it would be nice to be in another persons shoes. Yet at the same time, I don't know if this is good or bad. Sometimes I think too much of the things I don't have, and forget that I truly have all that I need. I think of what ifs so hard that it is difficult t sometimes come back. I say I want to do everything yet I fail to get to it. I speak so much, yet I am quiet. I don't even think I am making sense right now.
I keep looking back, and I don't know if its a good thing at all. But today was a mixed day, yet I am grateful for everything that has happened to me. While life may sting and poke you for a bit, everything will come into place when you least expect it. Today, I am more calm and secure that I am able to do what I wish and feel comfortable doing it. I will definitely get pricked again, but I am prepared to take it once again.
Happy Wednesday.